I guess I work better with my nose against the concrete. I may not be sane but apparently all my good work comes only from this position. My teachers during my senior year in high school made me cry many times about how much work needed to be done with my writing. My dance teacher has caused me to come home and cry many times about numerous things that I needed to fix in order to be a greater person in her standards to be a better dancer. I guess this is the first time in college where I feel challenged and inadequate to standard. I should feel blessed that there is a person willing to challenge me and push me further, as I did feel come the end of senior year and beginning of college, but I guess I haven’t been back in this place for a while and it feels odd. I know that this place makes me neurotic and very unhappy but it leads to a greater accomplishment.
Is unhappiness from pressure worth it?
Do you have to be in a neurotic state of mind to accomplish a degree of self growth?
those are rhetorical questions.
